Jealousy

Here i'm answering your question , Herman Ong .

-You really not jealous ? Just answer once ..

Answer ; What do you think ? You think that i'm really those cool blooded animal ? Yeah , maybe ? For others bahs . If i could . I wish she had never come to this school . If i could , i wish you's not part of our relationship , If i could , i wish she's not your mei or what so ever . If i could , i wish you had never been text with her before . If i could . i wish i did not know anything about it . If i could . i wish to you will only be mine . If i could , i wish everything had never happened before . If i could , i wish i could hold back my tears for you . If i could , i wish i could hug you tight and cry like a dog . Yea , a dog . If i could , i wish i could hold your hand and never let go . But the fact is . I can't . I can't accept all those things . Yeah , i said i won't jealous , so you just believe it blindly ? Maybe you will never know how much you mean to me , maybe you will never know how much i love you . Maybe for you , you think that i'm a H-O-N-G-S-T-E-R . But is alright , i don't mind , If i said i'm not jealous , then i must be lying . If i tell you i'm jealous , what will you do ? Still the same isn't it ? 10 more days to our first month , i really don't wish to quarrel with you over those little things . Anyway , I'm sorry toward you and Eeling . Sorry about being third party that spoiled two of you's relationship , sorry about taking your brother away from you , sorry for whatever i have done . sorry for every single thing i did .

Herman Ong's : Maybe to you , you think that i have no emotions , i won't be jealous , sad , angry , mad , bitch , or cry . But sorry , i think you are wrong . I didn't say out doesn't mean i don't feel jealous , I didn't cry doesn't mean i don't feel the pain , i may look fine outside but did you ever know how i feel inside ? No . you can't . Maybe to you , i'm still the same as a H-O-N-G-S-T-E-R . Seriously , although i'm older than you by 2 years but i do think that you are much more mature than me . I don't care about what others say . But . I love You . Sorry , i got to break my promise today , but i really have no mood to take my dinner .